i understand that money is hard everywhere. that this is what the rest of my life is gonna be like. having and then not having. i get it. it’s just that i was there. i was at the amount i set out to have and i was ready. to go and live on my own. and then three weeks of work is gone. i get it’s for the better and i understand that i had to it’s just not easy barely working now and then being set back when time is only getting closer. i want to do all these things and i just dont want to have anyone buy food for me anymore or a movie ticket or whatever it might be. i don’t want to have to rely on people or anything. i want to contribute and pull my weight. i want to buy you nice things and take you to disneyland or where ever you want to go. i want to be better at all this but i’m not and it sucks and im sorry.
